yes, this is pathetic and i’m publishing it for the whole world to see.. #sarcasm
a blessing in disguise. YES- this is me trying to be optimistic. repeatedly saying the same quotations over and over again, releasing deeps sighs and then smiling right after. sounds psychotic, but no it’s not.
i’m supposed to be studying for the crim3 quiz later, but yes, silly me is procrastinating again.
why am i even here on tumblr? i dunno. i sort of need comforting. i am pre-occupied and (yes) depressed yet again. one reason why i can’t discipline myself into reading and re-reading 45 provisions of the RPC. I think it’s more of a love dilemma than family issues. I really need to get over this boy. he’s not for me, i know that pero… pero ang hirap, hindi dahil sa mahal ko pa siya kung hindi dahil takot na ‘kong magmahal pang muli. he made me cry all those rivers of tears, and for what, for him to move on and be happy while i rot in pain and loneliness. I am exaggerating of course. I am not crying and definitely is not in pain. I am just worried and annoyed at how that stupid guy can just forget the pain i had to go through back then for him and then suddenly ignores me without even trying to pay back all the efforts i made for him when he had NO ONE to turn to.
nag-mukha akong tanga for you dumb-ass. I held on to you for more than a year, trying to save you. I ate up my pride just so i can support you, pero ano? you humiliate me like this! YES. i think that’s it. I am humiliated. At the thought of you bragging to the whole world that you’ve finally found someone to replace me while i grieve over the thought of being alone forever ‘cause i can’t get a decent boyfriend because i’m too scared of getting hurt and betrayed again…
I am envious. Yes, very much. Because he gets to be in love and be loved again.
